It be selfish to be grateful for today,

but I already caught you being so twice already. I bet you stood there staring at that message, in silence, with such indecency and shallow harboring as if the past years were near a figment of my imagination. So quick to set tides and split, all with the your reasoning of “good morals” and being considerate of me. And all this in one day…I play you at a toss of a coin, since that’s the only rational way to figure out how you are with me on a day to day basis. Then again it’s always been this way. Ironically we where in this exact same spot this time last year…and the year before that…

The effort is exhausting. I care not much now of where I/we place in your/my head/heart. Supposed friends or not. The sad part is that even if I was to put this in Layman’s term, you would stand there and say “I don’t understand.” or rush off upset.

Pause.

I’m not mad nor mad at you or even nearby bitter, I’m disappointed. 

But what else is there to do…I still got a life to live baby.